“Black Bodies in Travel” on drumBOOTY radio

Last month I had the opportunity to catch up with Abdu Ali on his new podcast drumBOOTY radio on maskfm. It’s an incredibly insightful chat about my experiences in South America, most notably Brazil and Abdu’s time spent touring in Europe.

Click this link to access the podcast. 


Solange sings Black Girl Existentialism in “A Seat at The Table”

There is nothing new about Solanges’ third studio album, A Seat at the Table. But that’s what’s so great about it.

2016 has been an intense year to be black. Not that it’s ever easy, but some years are calmer than others. 1996 and 2008 stand out in particular as Moesha debuted on UPN that year and Obama won his first term, respectively. 1864, was probably lit too. But 2016, has been straight garbage. The next President of the country will (hopefully) be the lesser of two evils, the lesser (we think) is Hilary Clinton, who had a major hand in the creation of the prison industrial complex and coined the term “super predator” in regards to young black men.  So, as urban cities in the United States awash in waves of well deserved violence and the amount of police officers killing black citizens rise like the level of CO2 in the atmosphere; 2016 goes down in the books as the year that things were shitty and more people, including Solange grew tired of it.


image created by Sophia Gach-Rasool @yeshi_is

A Seat at the Table is a dense album that floats like a feather sonically because Solange has been making music professionally since she was a pre teen and did not come to play with you hoes. It’s also clear that Solange has been paying attention to the young indie artists, as her album is comparable to newcomer Jamila Woods’ Heavn EP and Noname Gypsys’ Telefone. Two black women from Chicago telling similar stories about the overwhelmingly unique experience of contemporary blackness in the United States of America.

The title of the album is inspired by civil rights activist James Forman and his famous quote, “If we can’t have a seat at the table, then let’s…knock the fucking legs off”. The tone and style of the album references the civil rights era in lyric and song styles. This is aligned with Solange’s personal sound. Solo Star, her first studio album, featured a teenage Solange on the cover in her red, black and green knit cap. The album also had strong reggae vibes. Sol-Angel and the Hadley St. Dreams found Solange heavily influenced by the 1960’s and Motown vibes. Even her True EP featured visuals in South Africa. Solange has always had a political and almost folk music vibe, but this album is her strongest admission into that style yet.

The first four tracks set the tone and present the problem of what all black people are experiencing right now and honestly, always have been. “Black existentialism” the critique of the way black life is treated and an affirmation of black humanity, is thick throughout this album. Apparently the residue of being descendants of the people that literally built the United States of America, and yet are historically under credited, is heavy. Solange is intentional in how she arranged her music, as “Rise” is almost an overture of the album. “Fall in your ways / so you can sleep at night”, airy and simple, with just a piano, kick drum and synth, the track asks the listener to be honest about who they are, so that they can sleep at night, wake up and rise. Rise possibly meaning ascension in this context.  And from this proclamation of honesty we get into “Weary”.

This song, like the Mr. Krabs blurry meme and Arthur fist meme have managed to sum up 2016. We’re are all tired and angry and the more naïve of us are confused as to how we even got to this current state of the world. She speaks of going to look for her body and glory in the chorus in regards to the appropriation of the black female body. Since the creation of this country, it’s been bought and sold, commoditized and consumed, worn as costume and used for experimentation. But it’s never been ours, as black women. Even in our own communities we’ve never been free to own and exist in our own bodies on our terms. The great poet and playwright Ntozake Shange, wrote the poem “somebody almost walked off wid alla my stuff” for the lady in green in her seminal “for Colored Girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf”. This song is a direct heir of that poem. Now go do your Googles. The heaviness of “going to look for your body” as a woman, is perilous because from the day you’re born with a vagina, or decide that you want to get one made, is the fact that you will face a lot of bullshit. “You’re leaving/ not a trace in the world” Solange sings, and everyday black and brown girls go missing and are met with radio silence. There are about 64,000 black women missing in the United States of America right now, whose gonna look for your body? Solange evokes, Fannie Lou Hammer’s infamous quote “I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired” on this track, and the congregation says, “Amen.”

From there we’re carried into the beautifully soft existential crisis that is “Cranes in the Sky”, where Solange makes us all question our own behavior. Co-produced by Raphael Saadiq, it is an extremely personal and poetic song, that was actually written 8 years ago. It should be a Grammy contender. Solange sings of an “it” that we have all been trying to cure. Working out, buying clothes, traveling, all the things that the world say will make us feel better, just isn’t working. How many ways can you try and “insert action” a feeling away? The cleverness of this song is that the “it” is elusive and never named but we all know what it is. I’ve never heard depression sang of so beautifully. Some may assume that a failed romantic love caused this crisis, because Solange is a woman and that patriarchy juice is strong. But nevertheless, the following interlude gives context.

In the interlude “Dad was Mad” Solanges’ father Matthew Knowles recants his experience of integrating his school as a child and the anger that he lived with as result leads into the Lil Wayne assisted track “Mad”. “Mad” a very literal song, adds context to the general tone of her album, if you haven’t figured out that this album is about Solanges’ personal life as well as the shared black experience. Since Barack Obama has been President, people have been putting words together that make no sense, like “post” and “racial” and “reverse” and “racism”. It seems Solange is just as flabbergasted as the rest of us as to how we’ve reached a point where people aren’t allowed to be angry at their experienced injustice, just because Barack Obama is president. Tweet’s ethereal voice plainly states, “I’ve got a lot to be mad about.” And we all know exactly what she’s talking about. The bluntness of this song juxtaposed with the silkiness of Solange and Tweet’s voice helps us all swallow a bitter pill of reality.

This part of the album, gets less philosophical and more literal as Solange moves away from alluding to depression and sadness to straight up naming her pain and the perpetrators of the offense. “Don’t You Wait” an upbeat track, more sonically aligned to her TRUE EP sound, talks about “biting the hand that feeds you” and no longer wanting to waste time by knowing someone. This record is in direct response to one of the many infamous twitter rants Solange gave earlier in the year. Jon Caramanica a NYT music journalist, stressed that Solange may run the risk of biting the hands that feeds her, in regards to her stance on who can critique R&B music and black culture. Jon implied that Solange needs her white indie fan base to exist. In a sense, “Don’t You Wait”, is a good bye kiss to the whiteness Solange may have found herself immersed in while creating TRUE and living in Brooklyn. If this is true, her move to the south around 2013 could have lead to the following track, “Don’t Touch My Hair”.

This gem on the album is a read that only a black woman could deliver. White people literally have no understanding of the complexity of black hair. From the texture to the way it stands up instead of falling limp, Solange sings “they don’t understand/ what it means to me/ where we chose to go/ where we’ve been, to know” Slaves once braided paths to freedom into each other’s heads. Now Kim Kardashian is being credited for a style that literally cost tears. As a young black girl, you sat in between your mother’s leg, or whoever was doing it and cried because combing through kinky hair hurts. It hurts your scalp and it hurts whoever is combing your hair to watch your cry, but it’s a necessary evil because black hair must be tamed and controlled.  It’s infuriating. This country literally writes laws about how we can wear it. The recent decision that makes bans on dreadlocks legal in 2016 is nothing but a child of the ban that women of color in the 1800s faced. They were forced to cover their hair in public to control the growing influence of free blacks in Louisiana as well as keep white men’s sexual desires and white women’s’ jealousy at bay.

“I rode the ride/I gave it time” makes me think of that perilous time in a black girls’ life when she cuts the perm out of her hair and has to watch her natural texture, which has become unnatural to her by now, “grow out”. She literally has to give her hair time to grow. And it’s indeed a “ride” to have short kinky hair. She may lose her lover, her job, her self esteem. She’s risking a lot to be herself. So when she has to watch videos of white women creating weird ass “afros” and being called avant-garde for it, it’s nauseating. But Solange delivers this sentiment  soulfully and gracefully. Her voice is soft and the horns are smooth and the commands to not touch certain aspects of our culture, like our voice and our soul are delivered seamlessly over cowbells. Fucking cowbells. How can Solange encapsulate peak American blackness so well? Just when you think you’ve reached the climax she makes a subtle turn into the image heavy ballad, “Where Do We Go”.

In an interview with Saint Heron, Solanges’ mother Tina Knowles talks about how her family ended up in Texas. Mama Tina’s parents were run out of New Iberia, Louisiana after a mining incident that trapped her father. The mining company left her father and another man to die. Luckily half of the miners were related to Tina’s father and they rescued him. Unfortunately, this resulted in the termination of half of the family from the company for “breaking the rules”. In a classic power move, the mining company then rehired half of the family, which successfully divided the family, as the employed family members were no longer allowed to interact with the unemployed. “A molotov cocktail was actually thrown into my parents’ home, and at that moment they decided to leave for Galveston” says Tina Lawson in the interview. The lyrics “No I don’t know where to do/No, I don’t know where to stay” could be Solange channeling her grand parents anxiety over their sudden displacement. The song could also be used to talk about the violent gentrification that major cities around the world are facing right now. Solanges’ personal experiences are mirroring the state of the world in a way that makes this album feel formative. “We bowed our heads/We broke our bread that night/Shook our hands/Then conquer and divide” is a lyric about how the mining company disrupted her family. But it could also be talking about the history of Thanksgiving, easily. It’s her ability to be speaking about a very specific personal issue while simultaneously recanting historical events that makes this album Solanges’ showcase of how far she’s come as a songwriter and artist. She wrote and arranged every song on this album. And she’s really proud of the work she and her artistic partners have done. So much so that she made, “F.U.B.U”.

Co-produced and written by the Dream, “F. U. B. U.” is an acronym, For Us, By Us, which was the name of a black owned clothing company in the 1990s. “F.U.B.U” is another literal song. She starts the song by speaking to “all her niggas, in the whole wide world” and goes on to talk about how this shit is for us, by us. The “shit” could mean a lot of things, music, dance, art, peanut butter, all things that were created by black people belong to black people and shouldn’t be touched. Frankly, Solange is no longer with the shits. The shits being the blatant theft of black culture. I vote that F.U.B.U be entered into the new National Museum of African American History and Culture. Solange being an intentional artist and healer takes us out of the heavy emotion that  “Don’t Touch my Hair” “Where Do We Go” and “F.U.B.U” places us in. Just when you’re ready to curse out all your white co workers, she slides us into the up tempo track, “Borderline” co-produced by Q-Tip.

When you’ve “been more than a woman” and “lovers on a mission” sometimes you need a safe space to relax and “take an intermission”. Thus the shift into self care begins with much help from the Aaliyah sampled track. (RIP BabyGirl). Sonically Solange leaves the somber and heaviness of the beginning of the album on “Borderline” which, interestingly makes us feel borderline, to be going from tears to dancing in two songs. It’s an heir to Maya Angelou’s poem, Weekend Glory, which talks about the glory that is to be black on a Saturday night. The mood continues into the next track.

“Junie” the Andre 3000 assisted up tempo song is an ode to Junie Morrison, a legend in the music game and former member of the Ohio Players and Parliament Funkadelic. Although the mood is light and funky, Solange still manages to get some jabs at white supremacy in with the lyrics, “You want to be the teacher/ Don’t want to go to school/ Don’t want to do the dishes/ Just want to eat the food”. Even while caring for self and enjoying the glory that is to be black on a Saturday night, Solange is quick to remind you that even when she’s enjoying herself she knows what’s really going on in the world right now. “Don’t Wish Me Well” is another drop in the no fucks given bucket. She seems to be speaking directly to all her critics. She says she’s going all the way, but she’ll leave on the lights and mic for “you.” “You” being the world at large. That critic. Those who always have something to say. She’s stated her case with this album and she’s standing her ground.  She knows you’ll have something to say, but she’s already moving on to her next creative endeavor.

The last song “Scales” featuring Kelela is a dreamy track that makes you want to make out in a car. It seems to be an ode to young black men, specifically the kind of young black men who are targeted by the police. “Look on the TV/they all want to be me” Solange sings in a sweet falsetto commenting on the avid consumerism of black urban culture. This admission makes the presence of Master P, the great rap tycoon who revolutionized the way hip hop made money off itself, all the more empowering. Narrating the album in an Morgan Freeman God like voice, he talks about how watching the Avon lady in his neighborhood pop her trunk to sell her product influenced him to sell his music the same way, despite being offered a million dollars from a record company. Betting on himself, because he knew the white music exec was underestimating his worth he went on to start his own label amongst other things, and went on to make Forbes 40 under 40 list. His tales of entrepreneurship add empowerment to an otherwise frustratingly honest album about the unique and complicated experience of being black in the present day United States of America.

Revolutionary, this album is not. It’s not even revolutionary for Solange whose voice has always been rebellious and at times almost bratty. Being the sister of Beyoncé, allows one to live in a very interesting space. “I mirror the life of a millionaire/and I’m sorry if I’m talking shit/ but I really do mean well” she sang on her first track “God Given Name” from her album, Sol-Angel and the Hadley St. Dreams. She’s managed to be accepted by the indie crowds while not actually being fully indie, at least financially. But she talks like she’s independent, because she is. She doesn’t have much to lose when it comes to her artistry. She’s the little sister of Beyonce, that will always loom over her and financially protect her.  But that’s why she was able to make “A Seat at the Table”. An album full of sentiment that I’m sure every black pop artist has felt while existing in the industry. The fact that it resonates so earnestly with other facets of black life is simply fate.  This album is what happens when artists are given space and freedom to express what’s really going on without fear of backlash. “A Seat at the Table” is a beautiful musing on black existentialism for black girls who are angry when being Beyoncé’s sister isn’t enough to protect you from the bullshit of white supremacy.


Women, Art and Activism

This past Tuesday, Coletiva Muitas, hosted a discussion about feminism, art and activism.  Performance artists Laís Machado and Mônica Santana, photographer and poet Helemozão and visual artist Marie Tharont came together and provided the back stories of their success as female bodied artists in Salvador, Brasil.
IMG_3772  I’ve only been back in Brazil for 2 weeks so the language is a barrier but my general understanding of the discussion was despite the difference in medium these women worked in they all had to battle patriarchy to bring their visions to life. For all the women except Marie Tharont who is French, racism is/was a glaring obstacle as well.

IMG_3779 IMG_3778 IMG_3777Every woman’s story was invaluable and unique. Topics ranged from the lack of finances to societies reaction to the female voice and how we as women have to continue to fight to be heard in the creative industries. I’m looking forward to more discussions from Coletivas Muitas.

Just when you thought it was over…

Since moving back home to Baltimore, life has been a whirl wind. The same whirlwind that I thought I’d escape by leaving Salvador and returning home in the first place. Turns out my mother is right. “Where ever you go, there you are”. I’ve worked four different gigs on top of a steady flow of writing freelance. I’ve gotten to catch up with friends and spend time with my grandmother. I’ve watched my sister move out and other family members grow wings. Baltimore City has become a bit of a popping place, and it’s amazing to see. I’m producing a documentary about the Uprisings and working on my own project about the rise of the black business woman in Brazil. I also went through a major break up. Needless to say, this blog has been hard to maintain and I’ve considered letting it go.
But, a few weeks ago I was on my site, looking at referral links. And I noticed that most of my referrals came from the same site, blogueirasnegras.org. And I looked at the link. They listed the 25 most influential black women on the web in 2015. Screen Shot 2016-04-07 at 12.04.46 PM

I read the entire list and was impressed as I had the chance to meet some of the women listed when I was in Brazil. I also jotted down names as these were women I wanted to feature in my next project. Toward the end of the list, they began listing foreigners they love, the list starts with none one other than Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie.  Screen Shot 2016-04-07 at 12.05.28 PM

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I got teary eyed. I was really shocked that my lil ole blog that I could barely keep up was considered influential. Especially to Brazilian women, whose perseverance is literally the subject of my documentary that I’m fighting to make. (more on that later) Anyway, seeing this listing, inspired me to continue. Reminded me that someone is watching, reading and thinking about this blog and this work. And encouraged me to not only continue, but give my blog a real chance. So I’m revamping the site, (as soon as my funds get it together) and we now have a twitter , and instagram account. Be on the lookout for more content, a series and contributing bloggers. And always remember…

keep going.
even when you don’t see an end
even when you don’t feel like it
it’s coming.
whatever it is.

Navegar no Sistema de Universidade nos Estados Unidos Parte 1

Em Salvador eu me encontrei cercada por brilhantes negros graduados.  Eu constantemente dizia as pessoas, “ Você deve ir fazer seu PhD” ou “ Você deveria vir e ensinar-nos sua cultura”. Muitos gostavam da ideia de vir para os EUA e ensinar cultura afro-brasileira, mas não sabiam como. Eu ingenuamente pensei que este era um processo fácil e decidi criar um tipo de guia para orientar o processo de submissão para programas de pós-graduação nos EUA. Eu entrevistei uma jornalista que está atualmente em um programa de PhD na Universidade do Texas, Austin, o testemunho dela é a parte 1 dessa série.  A parte dois caracteriza a universidade que cursei, a Universidade de Maryland, distrito de Baltimore.

12278929_10153152112416791_2242544609781590810_nDaniela Gomes
 é um jornalista e ativista de São Paulo, Brasil. 

O que você está estudando?

Eu sou candidata no programa de estudos Africanos e Afro-diásporos na Universidade do Texas em Austin.

Quanto tempo demora o processo de candidatura para programas de pós-graduação nos Estados Unidos?

A candidatura geralmente leva seis meses, começa em agosto ou setembro e vai até dezembro ou janeiro. Depende do projeto e do programa. Eu já tinha contato com alguns professores antes de me candidatar. Me candidatei a três universidades e fui aceita pela Universidade do Texas. Este é o link do programa caso você esteja interessado.

O que você espera realizar com a sua formação?

Meu programa está realmente focado na vida acadêmica, preparando-nos para ser professores universitários, então eu provavelmente me candidatarei a um emprego na área. Mas estou deixando nas mãos de Deus.

Como você foi recebida nos Estados Unidos como uma negra brasileira?

Esta não foi a minha primeira vez nos Estados Unidos. Eu vivi em Atlanta GA antes, por um breve período. Entretanto a experiência de viver em uma cidade de maioria branca como Austin-Texas foi realmente um desafio, na maioria das vezes difícil. Austin é a única cidade nos estados unidos que enquanto cresce a população negra diminui, e falando sobre jovens adultos negros nos programas de pós-graduação, o número é realmente pequeno. Então a maioria do tempo você se sente isolado. Mas esta é uma boa cidade para estudar. Sobre ser uma negra brasileira, eu posso dizer que você sofre racismo dos brancos que vê você simplesmente como uma negra, mas você também enfrenta preconceito de alguns negros americanos, que pensam que você não é negro suficiente por não ser americano ou trata você com preconceito por causa dos estereótipos, especialmente quando você é uma mulher afro-brasileira. Eu escrevi algo no meu blog sobre isso.

Qual foi o primeiro passo para se candidatar a um programa de pós-graduação.

Em meu caso o primeiro passo foi se aproximar dos professores que eu contatei antes, para ver se eles estariam interessados em me ajudar. Depois você precisa fazer o Toelf e o GRE, depois disso você precisa seguir os passos que estão no site. Cada programa tem seu próprio processo, mas geralmente eles pedem três cartas de referência, uma carta de apresentação e traduções juramentadas do seu currículo de graduação e escola.

Quanto tempo dura todo o processo?

Eu respondi isso acima, geralmente o segundo semestre inteiro. Mas isso depende das datas dos testes e quanto tempo leva para pegar todo os documentos. Também é bem caro. Geralmente o programa cobra em torno de 100(cem) dólares por candidatura que não é reembolsável, mais 200(duzentos) dólares ou mais por teste, mais o dinheiro para fazer as traduções.

Se você pudesse se candidatar para programas nos Estados Unidos novamente, o que você faria diferente?

Eu amo meu programa, e este certamente seria minha escolha novamente. Mas eu preferiria me candidatar para o mestrado nos Estados Unidos, por que especificamente no caso do meu programa, que é muito intenso, três anos, eu teria mais tempo para me familiarizar com a academia americana e também para me adaptar a minha nova vida. Ir para lá com um mestrado feito no Brasil, sem saber nada do sistema de graduações nos Estados Unidos, foi realmente traumático e me causou alguns problemas como estudante.

Algum conselho para negros brasileiros que procuram se candidatar a programas de pós-graduação nos Estados Unidos?

Primeiro de tudo tenha certeza se é isso que você realmente quer. Conseguir um mestrado nos Estados Unidos é muito mais fácil que no Brasil, mas conseguir um PhD, não tem nem comparação com o Brasil. Você não tem vida e deve se dedicar integralmente ao programa. Segundo, planeje a sua vida para quando você terminar, o que você vai fazer com a sua graduação quando você chegar no Brasil? É possível validar o diploma? Como você vai encontrar um emprego? Terceiro, se prepare para gastar dinheiro, dinheiro durante o processo de candidatura( 800 dólares e no total deve ser cerca de 3.000 reais) e no caso que você seja aceito você também precisa de dinheiro, para provar que você pode se sustentar( mesmo que você tenha uma bolsa, a universidade pede mais do que isso no banco) principalmente nos seus primeiros meses lá, com o processo de mudança, o que pode realmente sair caro, por que você está chegando em uma nova cidade, sem casa, mobília e etc.

Obrigado pela entrevista informativa Daniela, desejando-lhe muito sucesso com a sua educação nos Estados Unidos.

Festival Latinidades Recap Day 4

Saturday was my last day at the Latinidades Festival and the most exciting. Featuring a play area for kids and a fair vending clothing and beauty products especially for black women, the festival felt like a family affair. There was a fashion show and a children’s space showing the cutest Afro Brazilian children’s show.

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I got to interview Karol Conka, my favorite care free black girl rapper. Her song “Voce Nao Vai” was a big part of the reason I decided to start a blog during my time in Brasil. It’s basically like the prelude to “BBHMM”. ANYWAY…she came through the festival and spoke to everyone and was just a Brazilian ray of sunshine. I adored watching the older women fawn over here. Karol is different because she’s genuine in who she is, she’s cute, bubbly adorable and smart. And a great way to start the long process of learning Portuguese.

I finally got to see “Pelo Malo” the film directed by Mariana Rondon, about a young boy who wants to be a singer but believes he needs to straighten his hair to do so. His mother is recently widowed and dealing with the evolving homosexuality she see’s in her son. The film is hypnotizing as it deals with many different social problems through the life of a 8 year old.

After the film I was able to hang out with the ladies of Tela Preta, a film collective from Bahia. We got ready to see Karol Conka headlining at the Parque Cidade. Her show was an epic way to celebrate everything that Latinidades accomplished with this years’ festival. When she bought a group of young black women on stage to dance with her for her song “Gandaia” I cried. It made me so proud to be black, to be a woman, to be happy in my skin, to be a lover of girl culture and what that means. It was a great time. kc6